She awoke from this dream feeling like something had shifted. Something was happening in a core part of her being. Her life had changed and she didn’t like it. It wasn’t so much the dream itself, but the more she thought about the words, the more grossed out she felt. “Beware the judgement of God.” More religious brainwashing. More control structures to get her to stay in line and perform her moral circus act for God’s entertainment. This is all the religious oppression I grew up with that I want nothing to do with anymore. That I’ve spent so long trying to dismantle and deconstruct in my mind and heart. Yuck.
This year I find myself being a real grinch about Christmas. Which is a new experience for me. I’m typically the one who has her Christmas shopping done by Nov 30 and has been playing Christmas music since September. But, not this year. This year I’m simply looking forward to Jan 2 when I can put this whole holiday mess behind me. I can’t put my finger on a specific “cause”. Maybe it’s family stuff, or being single at 35, or maybe it just takes too much energy this year. Maybe you can relate? Whether you are hopped up on eggnog and enjoying every sparkling holiday moment or, if you’re not, here are 4 ways to be kind to yourself during the holiday season.
I try to spend at least a few hours a week with my little nephews. There is a certain amount of connectedness that hanging out with them brings. Kids have a way of re-framing things for you. I wish I could experience life with the kind of awe and excitement that children do.
Moving into the new year we would love to be able to offer 100 hours of Prayer Resolution sessions to people who otherwise would not be able to afford it. We are currently running a year-end campaign, inviting people like you to partner with these amazing folk who are looking for help with deep healing and resolution.
Something had changed in her and she had a hard time putting her finger on it. It was like it no longer mattered if she had the right answers. It no longer mattered if she saved the world or converted people. It no longer mattered if she did everything she was supposed to do. There was a deep sense of stability and safety in her relationship with God that didn't depend on her getting it right. Somewhere deep inside her she knew that God was committed to her even if she wasn't committed to Him. That He would be faithful to her even if she wasn't faithful to Him…
…One of the frustrations I’ve had going through all this is that I haven’t ever seen anyone go through these sorts of struggles before. I’ve only heard about them after the fact. It seems like an especially hard struggle to be seen in. But, as a spiritual leader, I’m committed to being seen regardless of what’s going on…
In 2018, there is less motivation than ever for people to donate to nonprofits and churches. The tax game has changed and this could have a significant impact on your favorite ministries/churches. Find out more here…
September is one of my favorite months! The trees change color, the sun is still warm, but the nights are cool enough for bonfires, and its my birthday month. This year I got to celebrate with small groups of people here and there and it was absolutely delightful, low key, and peaceful.
As you heard in last month’s post (click here), Immerse has significant financial breathing room for at least 10 months. We’re working hard to make the most of this time and develop long-term sustainable systems that will empower us to move into the God-sized dreams that are in our hearts. So, what’s our plan to get there?
…Needless to say, having a healthy self image isn't exactly second nature to me. Maybe that’s why what Nate said hit such a nerve with me. Maybe the ghost of my mom, and the wounds of the past still haunt me, and my ability to accept the person in the mirror.
It hasn't been easy…
…Short answer: we are fully funded through June of 2019. We anticipate between $4,000 to $5,000 coming in per month between monthly donations, PR fees, program fees, and trainings. That puts us at a month deficit of approximately $5000/mth.
…As if on cue, my eyes began welling up and the dizziness I experienced began to fade. My mental fatigue diminished and for the first time in a week, I was motivated to take on the world, to work another long shift Saturday, and actually like the guy in the mirror again.
My heart is for caring for our leaders. God started prompting me to think about longevity and sustainability in ministry. Ideas tend to float around in my head bouncing into other ideas until I finally catch the connective thread. I wanted to know how we effectively care for our leadership. This has evolved into a clear vision for a pastoral and leadership care group.
This has been a summer of events for me...
Mel was hanging out with a friend one day, “By the way, Mel, God told me that Immerse is going to get $100,000 next year.” Mel did what any one of us would do. She filed that away in a deep mental folder under the heading of, “That’s nice of you to say and it’s never going to happen.” This was 1 year ago.
Do you ever play the game in your mind where you imagine what it would be like to do a different job just for the fun of it?
It was one of those dreams where you wonder if it was just a dream or something more substantial. I think it was more substantial. It had that divine taste to it. Ever since then I have been looking for ways to make more connections and expand my network. Somehow, I think this is critical to Immerse’s long-term success and sustainability.
What is faith? Is faith required for God to do miracles? If something doesn’t happen, does that mean I don’t have enough faith? What’s on the line in my own sense of identity if I don’t have “enough faith”?
I thought He was only concerned with me giving him glory, or me evangelizing everyone I met. I thought He only cared about results and converts and morals and ethics and doing the right thing always. But as I begin to dig deeper, I realize he wants something a lot deeper and heck of a lot simpler, too.
Then I remember that no good story is easy. No good story is free of conflict. No good story has everything go perfectly. Some things are worth the struggle. Worth the uncertainty. Worth the sacrifice.